Girlfriend # 2
So have you guys heard that new song boyfriend# 2? Basically its about a man who is the side dude that does all the things the main dude doesn't do. I wish I had a bf #1 but that's a totally different topic. So I think I am kinda someone's girlfriend #2 already but before you bite my head off let me explain....
So I met this guy in Decemeber we spent a lot of time IMing and facebooking and waited a while and eventually went to dinner a few times on some friendship type stuff. He said he had a girl. It didn't bother me because we were friends and I didn't want him like that.
I get to know him better and we kicked in his house a few times and nothing happend still on somefriendship stuff. I became slighty attracted to his wit intelligence, looks and he had lots of swag. On our regular routine of me coming to the crib and watching soccer with him he decides to give me a back rub. Lord! The backrub felt like SEX. He paid attention to every detail and
hit every spot. His touch gave me a tingly feeling inside. The rub became so sexual I abruptly said I had to go making up a bullshit excuse.
We both new the deal.
For the nxt few days I totally avoided him. I killed our routine. It was weird for a while. He finally sent me a text saying he had feelings for me and I had a ditto moment. I told him it couldn't happen gave him a whole speech about how I could nvr be a side chick blah blah blah. He agreed. A week later he begs me over says he is having fam issues and needed someone
to talk to. Long story short we r laying down on the floor in silence staring @ each other. Somehow we got so close our lips were pressing against each other but we weren't kissing. Our lips were seriously just touching each others. He finally eats his bowl of courage and ever so softly kisses me I pulled away and he was totally embarrassed. Lol. I said I couldn't.
Everything inside me said I should but It was so wrong. Ten minuts later I lost my morals and we were making out like teenagers. The kissing went on and on and on. Then the bra came off and yada yada yada. No we didn't have sex. Y'all nasty. In our moments of passionate kissing he
began to tug @ my pants. That's where I made a full stop. Not these goodies. He asked why did I think he was pulling on my pants I was stumped at the question. Our makeout session ended. I went home feeling crappy and empty. I got upset I let him know it was a mistake and totally wrong.
We hung out again in a public setting. The gf and him started having problems. they broke up. So he says..... I thought I was the reason but they were having problems and to top it off she found IMs of girls flirtin wit him. So he says....
I ate it up . The G that is and believed him. We carried on our rendezvous. I gave in. He tugged on my pants at another make out session. Again not thesse goodies. (i have a 6 month rule + i need a fucking title...i dont do fuck buddies.) I have to admit. I was curious. So i let him do him. He unzipped. I was waiting to see a penis so i can slap color out of him. No Penis. Ole boy has glazed donut lips. (bk talk for eating the box) YES he licked my pearl. AMAZING. It was absolutely amazing. That was the moment i was happy for "the break up". And just like the back rub he was a Pro. And I was his slave. I was in the twilight zone after that. lol. Yada yada. def no sex...y'all nasty. I didnt return the favor or anything...
It happend a second time. it was better than the first.
Weeks go by. We have our arguements. Its whatever. He's a pro. I dont care what he says, or what we fight about. As long as he is glazing his lips i really dont care. Grimey right? Hell No.
So i go on FB and check his page. His "Ex" is leaving him friendly msgs..WTF. I inquire he says we r cool now. we r just frens. I begin to ponder but dont say anything. I see him we sat in my car talking I straight up ask him do u have a girl. His response is " I dont know what I have".. WOW. I wasnt too surprised but i was a bit stunned.
I didnt press the issue because I didnt want him to even think I "Really liked him" or " i was starting to catch feelings" lol "True Playa for real ask my nigga for real"
I mean i like him but I dont like him like him. Ya naw mean <------whatever that means.
Soo his "girlfriend/ex girlfriend" bday was this weekend. He pulled strings and got her into a celeb party. He posts the pics on fb. There they are. Hugged up and he is kissin her on the cheek. She looked like the happiest girl in the world. While I was in a cold bed on fucking facebook. And so I digress.....
He calls me. He's been calling me. He tells me how much he wants to put his lips on me. Kiss my lips and the ones on my face as well. He wants to take me to the Marriot and pay special attention to me. I don't like hotels cuz they seem to insinuate sex and I am def not having sex with someone who is wifed up and is not giving me a title .
I call the bff. She says do it. Let him taste you so she can taste you. She's bout it and can obviously fight if she suggesting craziness like that.
1st time we kissed it was a mistake
All the times in btwn he told me they were not together I believed.
But if I do this I am dead wrong. Right?
Am I a girlfriend #2
Should this good girl turn bad?
If I do it I have to cut off all the emotions and be all about me.
Should I do me? He already doin him.
What should I do???
